It’s funny…I’m real good with emotions. I can empathize with others and discuss and deal with those feelings, but, when it comes to my own, I’m hesitant. So here I am barely staying afloat in my flaws and I’m writing a letter to you, to the woman with the biggest and most beautiful heart this side of heaven. 

What prompted this is *sigh* the females I’ve been involved with. I don’t feel anything emotionally for them anymore. Some old feeling flare up but they are quickly extinguished. Ever since I made the commitment to you, a person I never even met *haha*, they don’t do anything for me. I’m too busy dreaming of, hoping for, and praying for you. 

I’ve grown a LOT. Soo much. But I have such a long way to go. God is working in me and in my family and friends and excited to see what He’s gonna do. I know a lot of people say they can’t wait to meet their spouse, but I can wait. My reason? I’m not the man I need to be yet, you deserve so much more than what I am. I still so many childish ways. But by His grace I’ll get there. 

So I’m going keep growing and keep doing my best. You are always on my mind and always on my heart. I love you Miss, wherever you are…